She bites down on the inside of her lip until she tastes blood, until the sting is enough to stop the sob that wants to escape. This is why she's kept him out. Vader had surprised her, but he'd killed the last vestiges of a hope she didn't know she still held until it was gone.

There won't be any turning back now, not for Kylo. Not now that he's earned the approval of the only person that would ever matter. She'd been foolish to ever hope she could've been enough to sway him. And she knows, now, that she won't stop caring either. Right up to the day she has to kill him.

It's too much to bear, and a small choked sound escapes her in spite of her best efforts.